Birthdays fear me.. Especially the birthday bash we do in college garden(Now shifted to auditorium).
I fear i might not see all these people(classmates) together again after 6 months. My Graduate life is about to end.
What after that?? well ill come back to this question later.
What fears me is that through all these years, i have been a part of a classroom.
Cant imagine how life is going to turn out in near future. I guess this is the same with all my classmates.
After 6 months the entire environment around me is going to change.
Now, when i think of my life after graduation, another fear starts.. Should i take up a job or join a PG course,probably MBA.
Dilemma.There might be good days infact great days ahead, but im sure of missing these days. I still remember people working in offices recollecting their student life.
Putting apart from what i have achieved, whats next is the big question disturbing my mind.
To experience everything was the goal which i have set for my engineering life. There are still somethings left over to be experienced.
I fear of stepping out of college without experiencing them. Engineering period taught many things about life.
I recollect reading an article in some magazine a year bak in which it was mentioned that whatever you can experiment with your life you can do it as a student.
Even if mistakes are commited they can be overcome. But thats not the case in the real world. For every mistake you make it ll cost you in some way.
I fear of not experimenting anything. Infact as my engg life s coming to an end i feel as if i am stepping out of a world where i cud be me.
After taking up job, you cant be you. Because you being you might not satisfy everyone.
Here comes another freaky thought in my mind. Why am i speaking about taking up a job everytime?? Cant i opt for entrepreneurship or continue my student life with higher education??
Well, there is some logic in that, but i have some responsibilities to take up. And in order to meet them the most possible option is to either join a company or study while doing job.
Its dreadful to think about the later one. I know only one person accomplishing such a difficult challenging task. My BROTHER!!!!
Its challenging to match him but i can give it a try.. As far as opting for an entrepreneurship i guess there is still time. Need to know about industry.
This is what makes me feel distrbed.. On what decision did i come to?? Still donot have a plan for my future. I fear people beside me making great plans for their future. They are clear about whats comin next in their life. M unsure. Well, this is also good. "To be spontaneous, get rid of being planned". Now I find myself in a pool of confusions. I started this post with birthdays and where hav i come to.. my future.. This is what distrbing. I think of some topic it goes here and there and creates confusion. Infact it comes back to the same topic what next??
When i think of a solution, my dummy mind says "Li8 tisko!! What ll happen will definitely happen. B Brave and all the rest follows!!"
